I’ve been pushing myself really hard since 2016, the year I started publishing and somehow put out four books in seven months.
Each year I told myself I wouldn’t work so hard, but I kept on and sometimes added even more.
And now, almost four years later, my characters won’t talk to me. That’s a big problem because I can’t write without them.
So I think I may be reaching the burnout point. Luckily, I’m not fully there, but I think I’m getting close.
Looking back on my year, it’s not surprising:
Suffrage Movement Book:
- Researched two sample chapters.
- Wrote sample chapters (17,315 words)
- Co-wrote proposal.
- Queried agents with co-author.
- Shelved book.
Virginia and Francis Minor biography:
- Researched 105,557 words of notes.
- Took research trip to University of Virginia in Charlottesville.
- Wrote proposal and sample chapter.
- Queried agents.
- Project on hold.
Historical fiction book:
- 9,041 words of notes (not complete)
- Project on hold due to project below.
- Researched 21,634 words
- Developed detailed 7 page outline, with becomes 40 pages with notes.
- Did this in three weeks.
- Wrote 6,218 words.
- Now the book is refusing to cooperate.
- Wrote a short story for an anthology – 10,000 words
- Researching book chapter: The Ethics of Writing Guinevere for the Modern Age.
- So far at 15,410 words of notes.
- Have four articles and two books to go.
- Wrote three articles for NINC newsletter.
- Reported on 11 sessions from the NINC Conference.
That’s a total of 185,175 words written (not counting the articles and reporting), even if most were notes.
- Attended four conferences, speaking at two.
- Spoke at five other events.
- Conducted a successful USA Today bestseller list campaign.
- Read 86 books (not including research) to date. Will likely hit 100 by end of year.
Oh and I have a full-time job.
But yet I hesitate to let myself have a break.
- I’m not sure I know how. I don’t know how to person without writering.
- I worry someone else will get to this latest book before I do.
- I feel like I always need to be doing something.
- I worry that taking a break will harm my career.
Yet, I know I have to slow down/stop for a while. The only thing I can muster energy and interest in right now is playing Covet Fashion on my Kindle. That is not a good thing because it costs money, rather than making me money. And it takes up time I could be using for writing. But at least it is a creative outlet, I guess. (And I am a damn good stylist!)
I know how I got myself here; now I just have to figure out how to get out of it.
Sometimes a short break can work wonders. Hoping you kick the doldrums soon!
Thanks! Me too!
I’m kind of exhausted just reading this list. I don’t work at nearly your pace, but then I’m also not as successful as you have been. You’ll find the right balance for you. Good luck!
Sometimes we just need to step back and recharge. Then, going back to it re-energized. Remember recreation is also re-creation. Take some time to let your thoughts reorganize and rearrange. You may be surprised by what emerges anew.
Thanks. I’m doing my best to be still.
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